Velcro sneakers and a mood elevator

That was the extent of my day and for the first day in a few Im feeling like I am climbing out of my funk. I just re-read my last post and, aside from the skydiving video, it seemed low and loaded simultaneously. Revealing the weight and drive behind my eternal optimism proved to be more revealing than my exhibit was. I know that I go in spurts and that my high-highs are followed by some low funk…not in a bi-polar, manic way but more in like a wander in the mountains kind of way. Climbs, plateaus, hills and valleys.

Anyway, Im thinking part of the stress has been an expiration of my ability to live in a temporary state. An apartment filled with someone else’s furniture, a constant waiting to know how my transition is going to turn out. Like the guy with one foot on the boat and one foot on the dock, I have been watching the water get closer, stretching further than is comfortable and hoping that I manage to land on this side of the Atlantic without getting wet.

Berlin next weekend will be a nice shock to the system…some noise, some photos, an opportunity to break in my new velcro sneakers and then when I return it is time to settle down. Literally. The apartment hunt is on. I am going to find my own little piece of the Tyrol and hope I have enough cash left over to buy some dishes, a bed and make it home. My 1 year anniversary in Austria is a month away and my goal is to try to celebrate that milestone in my own place.

Anyway, I finally scrapped the schmutz off my apartment (lemon fresh!), consolidated 10 kilos of post-it notes into a pretty good power point presentation and picked up a few things to help make next week’s marathon a little more enjoyable (velcro sneakers, anyone?). A hike up der Blaser tomorrow has been scrapped for a drive to the Sudtirol due to a forecast for snow so Liz and I will head to check out the outlets in Brenner and maybe have a little lunch in Italy. I could have used the exercise but a little road trip will also be a nice mood elevator…

It’s been a little while since I shared a tune with you…so here’s something nice and mellow for a Saturday night. If I had a record player I would light some candles and listen to records all night tonight….